1. |
Needles
02:51
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are you feeling left behind?
the footprints you are following are covering landmines
every constructed enemy is an outgrowth of white supremacy
we’re being blessed with a covered face
and the rope around our neck.
cause I got needles in my hands
needles in my pockets
every drop of blood is a pain that’s worth it
we are looking for any open door
don’t go through expecting there might be one more
the future’s there to learn from the past I guess
but it will never fit into an hourglass
I can’t own what you can’t own
all my answers seem so useless when they’re told
because each of them is leading to more questions
are you happy, do you suffer enough?
are you working, do you suffer enough?
are you dying, do you suffer enough?
was it worth it cause it's gonna stay the same
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2. |
Darius
02:51
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are you wasting your time or am I wasting mine
throw me away over the edge
I ran through snakes on the way out
it is a competition
the songs I used to play for fun and joy
became a metric of what I am worth
and how I’m treated by strangers
I am taking a sip although I’m full and afraid it might kill the fire
are you over it or is it actually over?
but with the sound of an empty hall
your words become bigger
if it was just you and I
you’d still stay, you’d still play
what if it works out?
can you still enjoy the art that you crafted?
does it remind you of the fear that you’re mediocre
what if it works out?
if it works out, will you be happy?
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3. |
Workaround
04:09
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I can leave the train these days
with a different thought on my mind
it feels more like coming home now
than it did when I was a child
I´m seeing houses in an artificial scenery
friends are coming back to build a family
and I wonder should I too
or step back in the train
and keep it a safe place in my head?
Is making me the conscious disregard of things
that make me sad a selfish piece of shit?
The beauty of decay is an invention
nothing more than a workaround
It’s making me uncomfortable
cause my memories are filled with holes
Just a few more sunrays of the afterglow are shining through
but not the way they used to
I wanna be close by
cause I see the whole world burning.
I wanna be close by
cause I don’t think I’ll ever learn it
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4. |
Seoul
03:17
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I’m scared but I can’t move
there’s a better place but I can’t go
I don’t want to cover up and I don’t want to talk too much
it makes me fucking sick
that I used to feel so insecure about my skin tone
man it would turn so brown in the summer south
can you figure out
how to get rid of the wish to be someone else?
you gotta light it up / you gotta burn it down
I will find my peace where it’s not allowed
I was faking
I tried to mimic them
just an exaggerating, tragic copy of a white kid
how can I be a white kid?
what a strange way to think about it
you gotta light it up / you gotta burn it down
I will find my peace where it’s not allowed
and I know it’s a lot and it’s heavy on your shoulders
and I feel the same way too
we both spent our youth confused
do you realize how it shifted
it’s a power not a weakness
you should take it back, claim it and reuse it
can you figure out
how to get rid of the wish to be someone else
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5. |
Health
03:31
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why are you so scared that your last breath
really is your last breath
when it’s the first time and the last time
that you are not scared?
don’t follow the path that your mother went
let me tell you as a friend
what you gotta do
you can choose between oil and gasoline
learn how to enjoy the heat
from the books you read.
people do what they wanna do
but don’t wanna think twice
if that happened to me
I would either praise or curse god
I don’t wanna be stopped
accidental gathering
after years that you tried to observe
you wanna know about your enemy
and who’s gonna blink first
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6. |
Reviver
03:10
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a little shimmer in the endless dirt
is enough for us to remain defiant
your raging words became a true reminder
that not all is lost though it’s really frightening
I can tell that you are so tired of fighting over facts with all the deniers
the dragging weight of an impossible task
is cutting deep wounds in our shoulders
listen I just need you to stay
right here with me
if this is really the end
I want it with our fists out
I know it’s going down
but I don’t wanna let go
fuck that I want you around
you push me for the better
did we pass another pivotal point?
it’s going to redefine my level of hope
I know it’s going down
there is a quite slow but steady trend of changing things
a pile of loose ends is waiting but you know where to begin
I can tell that you are so tired
of fighting over facts with all the deniers
the dragging weight of an impossible task
is cutting deep wounds in our shoulders
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7. |
Green Paint
02:28
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I am exhausted of figuring out a peaceful way to live
that is not all about sucking other’s energy like leeches
but all the energy is wasted
it is good for our world because you say so
a moving advertisement wants me to believe you
yeah I figured out that we can’t buy our way out
man I’m tired cause of what you say
fuck this shit
don’t waste my time
screw your absolution
you’re crooked from the inside out
you’re just painted green.
all of your attempts are just pure pollution
your dishonest idea goes into mass production
there’s a difficult solution
for every difficult problem
so put the money where your mouth is
but we’re still playing in the system.
is there truth in the words you speak
did you change cause the market’s free
are you hiding brutal concrete
behind the leaves of a dying tree
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8. |
Yuppie Kids
03:39
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I don’t feel the urge to think
about the impacts linked
to my acts and deeds
I would really have to admit
that I should probably quit
what's provoking it
I don’t feel the need to plant trees
cause everybody around me
has got enough air to breathe
I don’t wanna stop eating meat
I've got a family to feed
and my taste to please
I don’t need a fucking yuppie kid
telling the way that I should live
I don’t want a monthly bus ticket
when I can get a brand new car for it
but I feel fine
the water’s rising on the other side
so why would I waste a thought on my alibi?
just because we’ve been here for so long
doesn't mean that we can carry on
just because we outsource the thrill
doesn't mean that we won’t pay the bill
so why can’t you change your mind?
we are running out of time.
I won’t take the blame because I was raised like that
Í don’t care what you say ‘bout theories that I don’t get
if you work 45 hours and got bills to pay
there is no more headspace at the end of the day
I got all the reasons but I don’t wanna change
cause everyone around is gonna stay the same
but I feel fine
the fire’s burning on the other side
so why would I
waste a thought on my alibi?
I'll go on holiday surrounded by hell
where everything is burning but I’m still feeling well
if I can’t see it I don’t believe it
aggressive talk is not what I needed
the kids are getting nervous in the neighborhood
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9. |
Pen Name
02:17
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I get into trouble
every time when I think I need to settle
are you into bad excuses?
do you know how challenging the truth is?
so I’m rather sticking up my mouth
and slugging down the reason for my doubts
I am so fed up and wonder why my stomach’s turning
panic is my pen name
watch your words
they are like a free throw
into the middle of my ego
I’m a misfit but I wanna fix it
get rid of my bad habit
I try to ignore the stitch and keep it out of my mind
I don’t wanna deal with it and look for exit
I’m tied up in knots if I know there is gonna be a conversation
another time, another place, another face
but the same sad situation
never will I leave my cave again
you would have to drag my body
feel it slipping through your sweaty hands
again and again and again
I don’t know why your commitment
is making me wish I would be more distant
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10. |
Don't Feed
02:43
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it feels like I am wasted energy
is that what I'm worth?
I’m always just a ticket price away
but you’re not the one who pays
living to amuse the masses
you’ll never ever know what it's like
to be aped by all these cheerful faces
are we getting over this someday?
are we ever getting out alive?
I can see an end
but don’t know how I can get out
I guess it's just a matter of time
until we climb these walls and run into the night
we’re gonna hide in the bushes and we’ll swim across the sea
when all my friends are free
do know what it's like to have a home
but never before been there on your own?
we’re gonna run like we never were allowed to
we’re gonna claim every city that we go through
(I’ll lock you up, so show me what you’ve got)
you wanna train me?
you wanna watch me dance?
why don’t you come closer
I will eat you alive
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11. |
Loose Contacts
03:35
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another message in a van
saying that I’m wishing you all the best
I can’t be there, maybe next year
hoping by the time you’ll forget
I don’t even think about excuses no more
I’m taking one for the team
like we’ve all done before
how many times until you regard me
as the one that's late to the party?
it is hard to justify missing out on your grandmother's 80th birthday.
sorry that I spent my time
chasing ghosts I’m never gonna find
all these loose contacts
seem to be the heaviest.
I think I'm the asshole in this game
forgot you while I pleased everyone else
all these loose contacts
choke me like a noose around my neck
everybody knows the feeling
when the dopamine is kicking
how much pace am I allowed to waste
to still gather momentum?
my friends forget to dream these days
and I still follow a phantom
everyone around me is heavy at heart
but striking roots without making intentions to start
how many times until you regard me
as the one that's late to the party?
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12. |
Interlude
00:25
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13. |
Cold Feet
03:15
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I am trying to keep up with your speed
but your words glue my feet to the floor
it's nothing that you did intentionally
but you make me think that it was
I am pretending that I couldn’t handle
somebody to lean on now without a therapist
I need my problems cause I love to solve them
and if I can’t find one I remain a pessimist
I know that im overthinking
something you don’t think about
I know you must be frustrated
because I never speak out loud
but I’m worried that I’m over you
and I know that you worry too
what if we are overdue?
the years dusk made a mess in my head
and ensures that it is making me forget
the first cold night, broken bike
no sleep, my eyes open wide
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