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An Entry
01:06
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Step into my state of mind
Where darkness shadows over light
Let me dream of what could be
I’ll walk you through my fantasies
Let me tell you what went wrong
The roads I took that brought this on
Hear the thoughts that plague my nights
“Maybe in another life”
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2. |
Maybe In Another Life
03:37
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Dive into my state of mind
Expose me at my core
I’ll confess all my delusions
Of how I'm always wanting more
I’ll paint you a picture
That haunts me every night
Would everything be different
In another life?
There must be somewhere out there
Beyond my veiled eyes
The visions of a better place
That I can't recognise
Lost in the fantasy
Of being anyone but me
Lost in the dream
Of all the possibilities
If I had purpose
Would I still feel lost?
If I was safe
Would I still feel afraid?
Would I be free from pain?
Would I still feel this way?
If I could live another life
Run from the cold mistakes
To the warmth of a new start
Craving to be born again
Lead me down a different path
Following roads that left me beat and bruised
Let my soul seep
Slowly from these open wounds
Lost in the fantasy
Of being anyone but me
Lost in the dream
Of all the possibilities
Is this all I’ll ever be?
The author of my own fucking tragedy
I do not belong
No strength to hold on
I am the cursed one
Misbegotten son
Let my memory fade
I’ve had enough
This feeling won’t subside
There must be something out there
Maybe in another life
Let me start again
I'll make it count this time
Can I start over?
Maybe in another life
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3. |
Siren Song
02:23
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Sew my mouth shut
So I can’t call for help
Isolate me from the world
And don’t let me think for myself
Keep me in the dark
Distortion of reality
Keep me in the dark
Questioning my sanity
Keep me in the dark
You forced your way inside
Made a home in my mind
A foreign body in my skin
I’ve been trying to push out
Nails scratching, heels dragging
You’re not going to let me go
Convinced me, to believe
I can’t do this on my own
Just so you could
Keep me, keep me in the dark
I don’t know who you are
Make me think you’re all I need
You forced me to watch you bleed
Did you get what you want from me?
When I finally had the strength to leave
The grass is always greener
But it’s dead on both sides
There’s nothing left for us to do
Is it me or is it you
I’ve come too far to go back, fuck
Shelter in a storm
Use me, take my warmth
Take me from my current form
Shape me til I'm what you want
Am I keeping to your plan
Embrace me so you can
Tricked by your siren song
But now I hate the sound
Nothing to me now
Once everything
Nothing to me now
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4. |
Bound To Your Whispers
03:14
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I'm begging for an escape
To be in control again
Silence the echo chamber in my brain
I found solace in my loneliness
There was a comfort in the calm
You came in, you were a friend
Someone I could confide in
I’ll always be here
I’ll keep you safe
Distract you from all your pain
I’m here to stay
But you began to rot
Leeched off all the things I’m not
You found my fears, forced me to see
You turned against me
Let me in and I’ll relieve your fears
What you've been thinking throughout all these years
You won't need anybody else
Don't reach out
You don't need help
Could you be everything I need?
I let it fester, I let it grow
That’s how I took control
You made me replay
All the things I said today
The mistakes I have made
I'm the one that they hate
I’m at the root of your anxiety
There’s not a world you exist without me
You let me in and I confirmed your fears
What you were thinking throughout all those years
You won’t need anybody else
Don't reach out
You don’t need help
Forever bound
Me and you
We'll always be
Entwined in two
Wrap your arms around my spirit
Move me limb by limb
This is all deserved
Nothing more to life than being hurt
I'm not here
An empty shell
Bound to your whispers
Under your spell
I have nothing left in me
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In the freezing cold
You are an open flame
Bring me comfort
In my darkest days
If you extinguish
I'll be left astray
A vessel lost without a bay
Taunted by the thoughts of loss
The day you're forced to pass across
Carve yourself into my lungs now
So when you're gone I can breathe out
I'll exhaust myself so you remain
And feel you here with me again
I’ve met with death
Too many times before
I dread the day
He comes back for more
If you're taken away
My eyes have no use
Blinded by dark
In the absence of you
If you leave
I can’t bear to stay
I’ll join you in another world
If you leave
I can’t bear to stay
I’ll join you in another place
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6. |
You & I
03:50
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We sit
Too nervous to speak
Waiting for the moment
To say what we need
We fight with the words
We don't wanna say
But we'd be naive
To think that we're okay
I cut off your lifeline
And you cut off mine
Nothing left to hold onto
When one becomes two
What I’d do to feel you one last time
I know you feel the same
What we planted
Became overgrown
Underwatered and unkept
Together but alone
I made our flowers wilt
You pulled the roots packed in the earth
But now there's nothing left to do
A chance to tend to gardens of our own
A chance to mend,
A chance to grow
I know but it can’t be that way
Another time, another place
We'd like to stay, but not today
Maybe if things were different
Another world, another space
You and I, another day
The sun beams off your skin
Reminding me of what has been
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7. |
Fragments Of A Dream
04:34
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My energy deflated
All my thoughts, they wander far
Mistrust of my future
The guilt in my past
Other times it seems
It might not all be so blue
If I could change just simple things
Maybe I could bloom
Maybe I could be happy too
I can see it in my dreams
They’re washing over me
An image of another place
Of where I’m supposed to be
Could I take a fragment
Or must I stay the same
An image of a better me
That fades when I'm awake
If they are who I truly am
Then why am I here
A hollow one,
Forgotten son
A phone call left unanswered
All of the words I left unsaid
All the mistakes I made
Everything I did instead
And I’m left with regret
Taunted by it constantly
I'm haunted in my sleep
I'm shown all that could’ve been
If I was anyone but me
Take this pain in my head
And the ache in my chest
End my torment and
Let new life grow instead
If I can’t be there
Then I can’t stay
There’s nothing for me
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8. |
Laughing Stock
01:10
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I’ve accepted my defeat
I’ve made my bed but I refuse to sleep
I’m not happy
I never was
I never will be
I’ll lower myself down
While you all just stand around
Why are you all so fucking happy?
Let me be the punchline to your joke
Manic, psychotic
I think I’ve fucking lost it
I can’t be helped
I’m in this hell
And there’s no way
That I’ll be leaving
Maybe I’ll slit my wrists
To feel something
Better than this
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9. |
An Exit
03:10
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Cold hands drag me down
Tear me from this place
Warmth stripped from my skin
Light drains from my face
The dark turns to me
Looking in my eyes
All my vile features
Exposed from the inside
I keep falling back
I'm surrounded by only empty space
I'm so afraid
I keep falling back
I reach out for you
Only empty space
I'm so afraid
My sunken eyes are barren
As barren as the earth
Around me there is nothing
The nothing I deserve
Withering like an autumn leaf
The skin starts to decay
Lost inside an emptiness
Engulfed in endless grey
Am I just a visitor
Or left here to reside
Lost inside an empty space
With nothing left in sight
Have I found my refuge?
Or has everything I wished for been placed into my reach?
Is my passage now complete?
Shadows start to shimmer
They swirl round
Around my sight
My cold limbs
Become frozen
I gasp for air
As breath turns to ice
They take my hand and lead me away
Will they take me somewhere else or force me to stay?
The darkness finally takes its form
And guides me to the gates
Shrieking as they open
A glimpse into my fate
A hand upon my shoulder
Turns me toward a light
Bleeding through fragments of a new
A new life
The light I saw before
is now devouring me
I’m burned by the sound
I’m deafened by the heat
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Stepped through the threshold
I made it beyond the bend
As my feet touch the ground
I feel the worlds extend
As the blinding light fades into colour
I feel my reborn skin
Everything is different now
But there's still a hole within
Is this what I longed for?
Why am I still wanting more?
Why am I not satisfied?
I gave up everything
And I’m still hollow inside
Surrounded by a family
They're strangers to me now
Surrounded by familiar places
But I don't know my way around
Maybe I got it all wrong
The scenery has changed
Everything is better now
But I still feel the fucking same
I think I’m not meant to be happy
No matter how far I go
Time passes but I still stay the same
I loathe the person I became
Another life, another place
What I am was not replaced
Reflection changes everything
And I’d like to think I’ve learnt from my mistakes
But I can’t go back,
For here I’m trapped
I can’t change my fate
Maybe I was the problem all along
How I saw the world
Now I can’t return
Never took a chance to stop and smell the roses
I’m buried beneath
As my body decomposes
I convinced myself nothing was right
I wasted time
A wasted life
With all i've learned
It all stays the same
Nothing I can do
Nothing I can change
And maybe I was the problem
It was me all along
I couldn’t fix how I saw the world
And now there’s nothing I can do
There’s no way that I can return
And I can recognise now that I should’ve taken a moment
A chance to stop and smell the roses
If I’d just taken that moment to reflect
Maybe I wouldn’t be buried beneath them
As my body decomposes
And I convinced myself that nothing was right
That there was no reason for me stay
I wasted time
A wasted life
And with all that I’ve learned
I can say it all stays the same
There’s nothing that I can change
I can’t go back
I can’t replay
And if I could
Would I be happy to be alive?
There’s no way that I could know
Maybe in another life
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