Ronin

by Rotting Out

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1.
01:36
A bastard from the bad lands A boy bruised by bad times Weak grip, broken hands Built by a broken man I laugh at myself as I'm dragged by the streets All I have is my kin so please leave them be If you’re gonna punish anyone, just punish me Here I am, Take me I’ll be the vessel for my family’s agony The weight of it has got me on my knees Can you hear me scream? It’s getting hard to breathe So let them walk and punish me
2.
Demons dying in the parking lot The old man’s got a needle in his arm RIchard’s got a hole in his head And then there’s a girl we found dead in the backyard In this city, this is life The bodies pile up and no one bats an eye In this, this is life I try to numb it out, feel nothing to survive Eyes wide, I won’t go away Stay alive, you can’t kill me Eyes wide, I’ll never go away Stay alive, you can’t kill me Left for dead but i still walk with broken legs And I'll always have a limp like scars from a razorblade Life’s been a predator, fucking me since I was a kid But it couldn’t take me out, so i sit with broken teeth and a stupid grin
3.
01:59
Cast your stones Poke your nose in my events like you sat front row Im poking holes in your story, The fact is you don’t fucking know Where i'm from you’ve tried to glorify In my slums i’m failure personified Fuck you and fuck your friends too And fuck everything you thought you knew About me and what I've seen and everything I've been through Suburban prodigy but you talk about “hardknocks” What do you know about long nights in a small box? Who the fuck is you? So when I see you, you know you’re not like me When I confront you, you’ll have forgotten how to speak Coward
4.
01:38
What do you know about time and counting days? The walls laugh as I cry wondering how I got this way The boy holds the gun and I slowly come undone But I know he's gotta die if I am to survive I'll play the reaper in my own life Why have I always been a servant to those dark times? I'll be certain to appreciate the purpose Of why the boy became the serpent in a world that kept cursing him So boy, come with me, it's you and I It's been a long time coming, so close your eyes Time to die
5.
02:10
Hell ain’t where i’m going, it’s where i’ve been Humiliation on my face since I was six I’m sick of laughing just to smother all the thoughts That leave me shaking when i think back far enough So come with me, in to the depths of my mind Come face to face with everything that i tried to hide I don’t want it, I wish it was a dream Take this old life and cut these bad days out of me A prisoner to somber days Mama, Do you remember the fear in my eyes when he trapped you in the room? I grabbed my brother and I we ran for our lives And just like that night I tremble as I write this reliving things through my eyes They’re mine but I don’t want them My “forever” problem A prisoner to somber days Let the reaper hold my hand and take it all away
6.
02:34
The belt snaps and it’s back to reality “Boy it’s for your own good” He tries to beat her out of me Can’t help but to think how I was just a kid Now i seek redemptions for the wrongs i never did When the sky falls, let it was this guilt away “It was my fault” Was a weight I carried with me everyday Unforgiven I can’t get out, still trying to find my way out Can’t you see? I’m only big so i can carry all my insecurities Self worth is like my reflection It’s been decades since it glanced at me So what do i do? How do I move? Do i forgive me? Do I even have anything to prove? So what do i do? How do I move? How the fuck do i forgive me? So what do i do? How do I move? How the fuck do i forgive myself? Redemptions for wrongs I never did
7.
01:55
Isolation burns the soul Like frostbite in the blistering cold But it was her, I felt her warmth When the world was dying She held me very close She’s still singing, still singing “Baby boy look at me, i’ll keep you breathing” Times when i got so fucking lost She whispered, “darling please just come back home” And I followed her lovely voice Back into her arms as she blocked out all the noise Bella mia, no hay nadien como tu Everything you've given I'd be lost without you So gorgeous, don’t be so surprised You gave me more than you could ever recognize So keep singing as you play with my hair Make me forget the dark days like they were never there
8.
03:08
It’s all on me Look at me, i’ve denied joy There's only comfort in my misery Any love shown, felt so undeserving Pushed away those that were any good to me It’s all on me, can’t you see? I’m the only one who’s got me on my knees Chained to the pain that just won’t let me breathe Chained to the pain When the sun shines, I look away Because my whole life, I felt the shade was meant for me Words like “dad, home, love, hope” seemed so far away The shit seemed more like make believe It’s been thirty years and it’s getting old I don’t want to feel like this anymore I want to run towards the sun, find me in myself Smile more, wouldn’t that be something else?
9.
02:15
A storm is coming, the rain is drowning me Is visceral rage all that i’ve become to be? When people speak, it’s animosity Because I've seen the ugly face of what they all can be I told you all i’ve known is hate Cursed by visceral rage Sick to my stomach, I See them for what they are Violent outburst disguise themselves as my old scars This swelling of hatred consumes me everyday Countless thoughts of ways to inflict some sort of pain All i see is red Everyday it takes everything to save me from myself And this fury kept me alive It’s also the reason i want to fucking die Uncursed by this rage In my head all i see is red
10.
05:22
“Walter, it’s time to talk about it” I figure if I never mentioned it, then it never happened Wore a thousand smiles a million times like it was nothing My stomach swelled with thoughts of self destruction It was 1993, in an obscure house My mother broke and my world fell apart They spoke to me about capes amongst the stars Then lured me with fleer ‘94 cards Just a boy on that day Just a boy I would pray that one day God would reach out and touch my face But instead it was a stranger That would take every ounce of innocence from me “I’ll hurt your baby brother if you ever speak of this” Even if i did, who would believe a homeless kid? Those words ingrained in my soul My world forever changed as they locked the doror I closed my eyes, I never spoke Alone in a moment, buried in my mind Now I don't cry, so no one knows Wandering the world with only instinct to survive Here i am Roaming alone Every step filled with shame Ronin: Unknown.

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released April 17, 2020

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