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American Spirit
03:41
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I won’t stop searching till I find it
Lost like memories when I was a kid
Is it in crystals or a sound bath
Or the things I dreamt up but I never did
I’ve looked all over, seeing double
Do I need a single eye
I need a mail order guru like those mail order brides
They say It’s all in meditation
But when I sit still, I’m afraid what I’ll find
Am I gonna get better
Did I drink the Kool-Aid
Am I looking in all the wrong places
Is my body just space
I got that American Spirit
It's searching for what I can’t find
I’m looking in holy rivers
I pray that she’ll show me a sign
If I let go of holding tightly
Will I see Jesus in a stranger tonight?
The devil hides in Coca Cola
But if I’m high will I be more qualified?
Cause in my Elvis Presley record I found the light
And my books say I’m a bad ass for just $12.99
Maybe I’ll trace it to my family
But maybe some things, should be buried alive
I’m giving up
I surrender to you
I’m giving up
I surrender to you
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2. |
Teenager
03:41
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Warm nights
Smoke burns up in our eyes
Lips kiss like this is goodbye
I knew this moment would never stay
Highway
Lines blur into the twilight
I can’t see past the headlights
I still swear that we’ll never change
Got your head up in the clouds now
Teenagers
Don’t you ever try to calm down
That flavor
Oh, they figured it out and
Oh, they’re running their mouths and
Oh, we’re needing ‘em now
Teenagers
I still feel like taking a chance
These days are bringing it back
I know that part of me wants escape
Move like my whole bodies on fire
We're not cruel, we're survivors
We feed off of our quiet rage
Burn that midnight oil
We can't stop the flood
Cause it's got a pulse
Burning in our blood
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3. |
Koala
03:08
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I get so deep in my own head
An endless pit in my own bed
But then you pull me out again
Say Drama Queen this ain’t the end
I fill up with these made up fears
I drown myself in made up tears
You say that this is ending here
I hold you and I disappear
You say, would I lie to you?
Would I lie to you?
You say come here my koala
Let me hold you like I oughta
I say, I’m a wreck
I’m a fucking mess
You say come here my koala
Let me hold you like I oughta
Some nights feel like a heavy load
A ticking clock and I explode
The words get caught up in my throat
You give me space but keep me close
Sometimes the voices get so loud
So loud, like 6 feet underground
I wake up on the battle ground
Scared that I won’t make it out
God, what if no one remembers we’re here
Bones turned to dust as a last souvenir
And I can’t sleep straight through the night
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4. |
Lit Match
03:21
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Wait till I'm down at the deep end
Wait till I can’t touch the bottom
That's when you tell me that you’re seeing somebody and she feels just like me
I can only take so much
I’m bulletproof but I’m human
No, you can’t blame me for that
I can't get over what you did
Swear that it's holding me back
Whenever I sing the music
All the lyrics are so sad
I feel like I’m gonna lose it
But then the pain is a lit match
I’m getting used to a sharp end
Loneliness feels like an old friend
I'm just getting cozier with the knife that's stuck in my back
I didn’t think I'd get through it
I’m bulletproof but I’m human
No, you can't blame me for that
And I'll get over what you did
No, it's not holding me back
Whenever I sing the music
All the lyrics are so sad
Now I learned how to use it
Because the pain is a lit match
No, I never thought I’d see the daylight
No, I never thought I’d make the sparks fly
Felt like I was just coming undone
But I feel this new fire like hunger
Pull me out or it be taking me under
Breathe it out or hold it in my lungs
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5. |
Better at Being Young
03:13
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Close my eyes for a minute
Woke up, summer was finished
How’s it gone in an instant
Twisted, distant
I remember those cold hands
And he tasted like stale grass
Lasted long as a quick drag
Oh man, God damn
Red eyes, teeth marks, hushed tones fill up my lungs
Motels, gold stars, dead phones, where can I run
Cause I was better at being young
When I first saw the skyline
City lit by the traffic
Made the weekend a classic
Manic, addict
Gonna lay down my body cold
Maybe be someone else
Remember what I wanted
When it was still OK to want it
Red eyes, crushed bones, mouth guards
Bad dreams, sweet hearts, twin beds
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6. |
Warm Blood
03:38
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I’ve been stuck in my crazy mind
Thinking, oh my God
Is this all I got
All the voices say
You’re dead either way
Oh my god
Honey, thanks a lot
I got just enough
I got warm blood
I got just enough
I got warm blood
Open my arms to good love
Wish on a star for good luck
I got warm blood
I got the air in my lungs
I swear that I don’t need much
I got warm blood
There’s a light in a lonely room
Saying come inside honey, you’re alright
All my memories, every piece of me
What a sight but they make me smile
I'm not saying I don't get lonely
Somber days that made me crawl
But I got oxygen to flow through me
A heart that beats after it stalls
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7. |
Boys Can Cry
03:05
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Takes the anger out on another
Or is all the screaming just in his head
God, this feeling hurts like a mother
He'll push it down into the pit of his chest
He's got troubles
He don't show it
Till the ocean's
Overflowing
We've got old rules
We don't buy 'em
Now our voices
Can't stay silent
Why's it so hard getting it right?
Boys can cry
Girls can fight
Don't get stuck believing the hype
Boys can cry
Girls can fight
Knows what she wants but keeps it quiet
Bites her tongue so she don't scare them away
Rolls up her sleeves only in hiding
Builds her strength because she's hoping for change
Her desire
They won't hear it
She's got fire
Won't go near it
What's gonna change their minds
It'll take some time, won't happen overnight
We're gonna change their minds
Leave it all behind, won't happen overnight
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8. |
Distraction
03:16
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When you’re calling let it go
You’re just a dead end stop on the road
When I want you, turn around turn around
There’s only one way that this can go
And when I’m only thinking ‘bout my long cold weekend alone
I’m missing every moment
If I can calm my temper
Throw away this pressure I know
I’ll take my shit and own it
Gotta get a little taste of some self love
You’re just a simple distraction
Gotta get a little taste of some self love
You're just a simple distraction
I’ll admit I think of you
And it pulls me down when I do
Time to leave it all behind, I'll be fine
Yeah, it kills you telling the truth
When I’m feeling lonely, pick up when you call me, I know
I’ll hate me in the morning
I’ll keep on moving, I think that I’m getting close
I like where this is going
I’ve been seeing clear for days
How the times, they change
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9. |
Happy
03:22
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Getting close, got me shaking off the weight on my shoulders
Buried gold, dig it up so we could get some exposure
Gravity, dropping like stars in front of me
Solid ground, that’s what you are
You feeling me
Now that I’m happy
I can feel it like a flood
Standing on concrete
Cash in when the sun comes up
Floating on my feet
I taste the sugar on my tongue
Now that I’m happy
I’m ready to love someone
Changing moods, like my bodies waking up from a fever
Cause of you, turned this sober cynic into a dreamer
Coming out of left field honey
God, I got lucky
More than you could ever know
I’m diving in the cold, cold water
Fall on the altar
Learned how to let it go
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10. |
Dear Heart
03:37
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Dear heart
Are you ever coming back to me
Did you ever notice how I need you now
to experience the things I see
Dear Heart
I know you're hiding out somewhere
I'm feeling numb without someone
to tell me that I'm still enough
Show me which way to go
Tell me it gets easier
I'm scared I'll lose control
can we go back to the way we were
Dear Heart
Hey Friend
I know you're feeling incomplete
I wish I knew just what you need
cause when you're hurting I can feel how deep
Hey friend
I promise I won't fix you up
You're beautiful with all your scars and cuts
and I hope that someday someone sees how much
Don't give up on me
I'm still pulling myself together
I need time to breathe
Don't give up on me
Dear Heart
All the years have made you bittersweet
And you're not as quick to trust what looks like love
cause the last time they left both of us
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